About a month ago I was fired from the job where I considered them the family I never had and a woman I cared for true colors showed... I ain't that mad about the firing because I was way to comfortable at the job and would of never progressed in life being their but more so with a woman I thought I had a bond with who worked there. Man I'm all fucked up over this chick still! Today I took a nap and dreamt of her, we was kicking it like we used to which felt all to real which was great but than she later left me which had me feeling ill again. I'm going thru withdrawal which sucks big time, all I do is think of her all day long. I miss her so much. Having great feelings towards a person who doesn't give a shit about you is one of the worst feelings... You sit there and think to yourself 1001 ways of how you could of salvaged the relationship, did something else, or conjure up some silly ideas of how to force her to show you the same love and appreciation you adored her with. I sit here and try to force myself to talk bad about her but it's hard to because she was one of the greatest personalities I've ever gotten to known and because I have that sliver of hope we will reconnect...but the cold truth is that will never happen... except she did say she would trick for $200-$300...my dumb sucker ass has actually been entertaining that shit in my head. I considered her and everyone else at that job family, bent over backwards so many times, done so many favors never accepting anything in return just to see them happy but in return the good guy gets fucked over. Can't say life lesson learned because I knew all them folks weren't shit from the start. So I been spending valuable time with REAL family, playing Battlefield 3, hanging on the internet, do volunteering, listening to sappy R & B music etc but all of this feel like a temporary band-aid... All I want is closure I guess, if you weren't feeling me why the fuck you play me pretending to be my friend because when I needed you for once, your sympathy along with your heart was ghost. [YOUTUBE]twJyrrPJpZ0[/YOUTUBE]
I'm missing the joke or the punchline in my original post... Can you help point it out please or contribute to the thread of how you got over getting your heart broken. Thanks.
I used to go thru this crazy cycle of getting over one breakup/broken heart by falling in love with someone else rather quickly. This actually works except the inevitable end of the new relationship hurts worse each time. What I learned is that you just have to really find yourself again. Sometimes if we get too deep we lose sight of who we really are. I remember the last time I had my heart broke I knew I would come out of it ok and I wrote out a plan of recovery and put it on my old blog. Maybe it can help. http://brianonrea.com/2011/11/18/how-to-deal-with-difficult-circumstances/
Growing a pair means letting people go. Still hurts. Cool thanks for the link, never fell into that habit. I have a job :smt120 thanks for the concern. lol that's what they say. I ain't just speaking about women to, I had my heart broken by male friends and family members too. They say time heals best but I still find myself not getting over stuff that has happened years ago.
Just learn to stop giving a fuck.... Once you learn to not give a fuck shit no longer bothers you because you no longer give a fuck about the shit that would have previously bothered you.
there u go rite there. just chalk it up to the game and get to macking again. be upset for a sec then move on. you best believe she is not thinking about your ass.