My age has nothing to do with my actual age or how I look (which is younger). I want to die. Nothing makes sense or belongs to me.
1-800-SUICIDE or go to a local hospital where trained professionals can help you. If you need help get it, now.
I feel the same,age is a number and I am feeling young and old at the same time. Young in my mind and curiosity, old when I look back what I've already experienced. I've had the chance to see a lot of the world, to meet a huge amount of people, rich and poor, genies and psychopaths, criminals and victims, so that I can estimate people pretty fast, what shocks others many times, when they don't believe me first, but afterwards must say that I was right. Sometimes I think that if I'd have a deadly accident tomorrow, it would just be fair. I am fortunate with my look, with my healthy. Others are not, others have already a horrible start and their whole life has to be different than mine, just because, where they are born, where they live, how they are raised. I am not there, where I wanted to be at this age. My life was and always will be an up and down. I always took high risks and that won't change anymore. I was higher than I could wish and deeper than I could imagine.
