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lol... i was thinkin the same thing...

 

just finished my first official day as a kindergarten assistant. looking after 25 4 & 5 year olds is exhausting and fun...and i've come out with a boyfriend...think he'll dump me once he starts school though

 

Damn Espy, that is pretty sad. Hope your mom turn her manners around and be pleasant for a change at least for the sake of the kids. I know first hand dealing with difficult family members can be exhausting and frustrating. All the best my good friend.

 

You know GZ, I thought I was beyond the point where she could surprise me, given that I have such pathetically low expectations for her, but wonders never cease apparently... she called me this evening and apologized and actually asked me to forgive her for being hateful and inappropriate. I told the kids that hell must have just frozen over. :smt042 That's literally a first in my life. That woman has never apologized for anything, and she has much that is apology worthy. I don't know what got into her, most likely she just wanted to see my sisters and her grandchildren badly enough to swallow her pride and righteous indignation, but as long as she plays nice, I'll play nice.

 

Espy, glad to hear your mom came to her senses!!

You know, I'd totally post more in threads that sound interesting, but when I click on the thread, I see that it's either a novel or a 10 minute long Youtube video. I don't have time for that crap. LOL.

Eh. I guess if I were really interested in those threads, I'd take the time.

 

Hey! I didn't know you were doing this!! Awesome!

 

Agreed, good for you Tarshi! I don't have the patience to deal with other people's small children, I think it takes a special person to do it, which you certainly are.

 

Hanging and banging as usual. Looking forward to the trip I'm taking in mid December, and I'm buying some Chinese swords this Friday. Nothing new, besides the swords that is.

 

Oooooh, I wanna see! Take some pics Sonny and post them please.

 

I feel that given the scope of my life that I've only encountered one experience regarding relationships, and from that point forth, it's been a lackluster, I've taken the liberty to set myself a limit. I'm 24 years old now, so six years from now anything can happen, you're right. But I'm sticking with that promise for good until that moment comes. Besides, at 30, I will feel like an old person.

The single life will be good and I'm not much of a party person, but I'll socialize more!

1. Thank you for the concern. I've checked with my mom (she's a nurse and works under a doctor) and she confirmed that it was just minor relapse in the heart. Nothing serious, but it just meant I didn't get much sleep and my body wore out from not doing a lot of activities that one day.

2. It's easier said than done. That would be some great advice, but for some reason, that part is inaccessible and I would prefer to earn it without having to pay for it.

I'm 24 years old, so I have six years left.

 

You might be surprised BBW. I'm 42 and feel younger now than I did at 30. I think when you reach a point in your life where you are content with yourself, age becomes irrelevant.

I'd advise you to see a cardiologist BBW, what you described isn't a minor anything. I worked for cardiologists, several of whom subspecialized, for 8 years and that's something that should be assessed by a specialist. A period of inactivity followed by a period of activity wouldn't have a negative effect, or be met by a negative response in a healthy heart. That's something that really should be checked out.

 

Over the weekend, a lady friend of mine texted me and asked about how big my penis is. Now, just a little backstory behind it all...

1. I joined a broadcasting website around 2008 and I was part of that niche audience that garnered notoriety.

2. She found me on there, while broadcasting. Beautiful Boricua who loves black men and white men, more so black men.

3. She's heavily religious, but very fun to communicate with, since she's of a friendly nature.

4. On my shows, I frequent developed erections from "natural causes" and normally when I stand up, my penis pokes through my pants and people develop a *gasp* and shock.

5. She, being the sensitive Latin, religious beauty she is, turned shy in the face when that happens, thus causing her to turn her head or leave the broadcast. She comes back after I sit down.

Anyway, she had the impression that I shoved something down in my pants to make it look like I had a boner.

 

1. That is true. With age, you grow with content with pretty much your life as a whole. But that's merely limited to the self, not necessarily the need to find companionship to spend with the rest of my life. Rather, enjoying life for what its worth without that extra element would prove more fruitful.

2. Very well. I'll check it out soon.

 

1. I think the more content you are with yourself, the less you feel the draw to other people. However that also depends on whether you're an introvert or an extrovert. I'm naturally introverted and as such I'm perfectly content to be alone, and in fact prefer that to being with someone 24/7. I also never sought happiness in someone else, I always knew that had to come from within. I think some people who aren't happy seem to think companionship will solve that for them, and IMO expecting someone else to 'complete you' is not going to work. If you aren't happy and accepting of yourself, that's not something anyone else can give you.

2. Please do get it checked. There are a myriad of things that could cause what you described, and it may be something completely benign, but it still merits checking out. I know that cannot be a comfortable feeling to have, and were I you I wouldn't want to experience it again.

3. This is in regards to your other post. You friend doesn't sound like a shy person to me if she's texting you to ask your dick size. Most people probably wouldn't consider me shy, though I actually am quite reserved about certain things, but that's something I wouldn't do. That's really invasive IMO and not something I'd discuss with a man I wasn't involved with, or really, really good friends with, and even then I wouldn't bring it up.

 

I'm gonna give you advice I wish I had followed when I was your age. Get educated, be active, volunteer one hour of your time per, and get money. Stay focused my dude. The one thing I have to admire about women is they have way more focus than us, they don't let dick trip them up they way we let pussy do to us. So improve on yourself so that when you're ready for a good woman when you meet her.

 

1. That is true. I'm a bit of a complex nature. If I'm around people, I can become the life of the group. But for the most part, I'm better reserved and staying on my own terms in solitude. So, I guess you could say I can be both in given circumstances, but for the most part, introverted. I don't really have a set group of people I can call my friends, and generally do things by myself. Although, I have to confess, if there's a girl I find attractive I would try and communicate with them through a funny first impression.

2. I will check it soon. Do not worry about me so much. I'm certain I'll live past 40.

3. This is the first time she ever brought it up and she's not one to really talk about anything relating to sex. Although she's surrounded by people who does talk about it. But hey, maybe to you it would be invasive, but I find it quite amusing and flattering on my part. I guess it's because I think she's cute and her personality charms me.

Women have been known to be VERY good at multi-tasking. Combined with the environment they are in (political and social struggles and gender perceptions), it's only natural that they would know how to retain focus on what matters most - their future and mark in history.

 

In the case I'll be single forever, that gives me all the time in the world to improve myself and to make my mark in the world.

 

Very good attitude SD. How old r u?

 

29 in a month. Look, I've always been single, but its because of my attitude, outlook and lack of self esteem. I'm working on all aspects of my life because I hope to be in a serious (long term) relationship. I just have to have my stuff in order first. I have to get business taken care of. Its time for me to start living.

If I'm still single in ten years, then I'll go to Steve Harvey for help.

 

Fam I'll tell you this since we're the same age. Don't restrict yourself, life is full of surprises. A few months ago I had a job paying me a little under 80 grand with end year bonuses and I have a decent car and a decent place to live and yeah I would find girls to nail but nothing solid. Now I'm back in school making a quarter of what I use to and I found an incredible girl. Side note for all of you who read that okcupid statistic about bm not getting responses from ww its not completely true it just takes a little effort.
My point is don't close yourself off. You can do you fam but just realize life is filled with a lot of possibilities.