I with I could thop being attracted to White women ath well, I hate it with a passion. I'm not attracted to most White women (and not any of the ones I see in real life) but the women I do have romantic feelings for, the ones I see on internet message boards or in television shows/movies/porn videos, are usually White, sometimes neither Black or White and rarely ever Black. Most of the White people I come across are rude, obnoxious and lack empathy (cognitive and affective), at least for me. So is/do everyone else but most people where I live are White. I honestly can't stand dealing with them, I lose my personality when I'm around them. I don't know if it's the contrast in skin color and the fact that they're so alien to me, or living in a White area and being interested in issues that, stereotypically, appeal mostly to White people (ie. philosophy) or the fact that most of the tv shows/movies I watch have White protagonists but, for whatever reasons, I find attractive White women with compassionate, kind personalities to be very desirable. It's depressing because I consider myself to be pro-African unity (although you can be a pan-Africanist and identify with non-Africans) and I hate to be just another stereotypical BM who's head over heels for White women, especially considering how often I'm mistreated and disrespected by these people. I've been talking to this White girl online for years now and my feelings for her are even stronger then when I first developed a crush on her. She is my favorite human being in the world and I don't even know what her voice sounds like.
In my teen years, I wasn't even remotely attracted to them, save for the very odd exception. What the hell happened to me? I was rarely attracted to light skinned Black women back then, let alone White women. Now, when I see a beautiful Black woman, I want to put her on a pedestal and not touch her because I'm so proud of myself for being seriously attracted to one again. I think Black women are as physically attractive as White women are but the thought of being intimate with someone who's so different from me is endearing, so it's easier for me to have romantic feelings for White women. One thing is for sure, I will never act on these feelings in real life.
*off topic* - to look at someone in a hyper-sexual context is not the same thing as viewing them as a sexual object. To objectify someone is to disregard their feelings/self-interests and use them as an instrument for your own benefit. Unless you're raping these women or tricking them into having sex with you, you aren't 'objectifying' them. The very nature of sexual/romantic attraction is self-gratifying.
