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Liquid Swords said:
My life literally was turned upside down on Wednesday night.

My drink was spiked when I was in a club and I was beaten and raped twice by someone I knew and trusted. The only reason I got away is because the neighbour heard my screams and I managed to sneak out when he fell asleep in the other room. The police found me on the street when I was running away. Ever since I've been in and out of police stations and hospitals. The guy is remanded for now but I'm not sure if he'll be released before trial. The evidence is really strong and the case looks good but I'm still very nervous. This has just put everything in perspective for me, things that seemed such a big deal before seem so pointless now. Luckily most of my injuries are superficial but I've had to get stitches on my foot because I 'degloved' my big toe as I was running away. My head is just crazy right now - partly I feel disgusting and dirty, partly feeling like somehow this is my fault, partly feeling sorry for the guy being locked up (WTF?!) and partly want to beat him with a baseball bat. I want to talk to him, I want him to tell me why he did this to me but I know there's no point in that. I've just totally lost my trust in people which is sad because before I was the most trusting (although verging on naive) person ever. Life goes on though, I'm just lucky I'm here. I'm just scared for the trial, I know rape trials are tricky but the police said they've not seen a case with as much evidence before and there are two witnesses which is very rare plus medical exams and the blood all over his apartment is kinda proof. I'll let everyone know how things go.
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it's not your fault honey. a vile, poor excuse of a human being has violated you in a way that unless you've been through it, is unimaginable...!!! my deepest sympathy, love and support goes out to you. surround yourself with family and people that truly love you. maybe when you are ready, find a counsellor who deals with victims of rape and a support group as well. again, i'm so sorry this has happened to you...rape is a cowardly act done by cowardly people
 
LS, I know nothing that we say or do can help you through this hard time but please be assured that we are here to listen to you.
Im sorry for what u are going through right now and I hope this asshole will get what he deserves.
No, unfortunately what he deserves is not covered by any law enforcement. But I hope he will be punished.
May you recover from this awful experience the best way possible.
 
((((((((((((((LS))))))))))))

I left you info in the rep hon - I think I forgot to sign it (yah I suck on the rep thing!)
 
LS, I don't even know where to begin. I can't express how sorry I am that you have to go through something as horrible as this. Like Saty said, please please please move forward with the legal procedings. The fact that someone could do this to you - especially someone you knew - is disgusting and unforgivable, the guy is a monster. You MUST not allow him to get away with this.
Unfortunately this will not be something that's easy for you to get over. Counselling and therapy might help, they might not, but I do recommend that you try. It will take time for you to even start feeling like you're better, so don't force yourself to be okay. Look for support within those close to you, you sister and son especially. And we are all here for you. I repped you my email, like I said, please message me anytime. Even if you just need to get away for a bit, you're welcome here.

I'm so sorry, my love. You are a wonderful woman. You are strong, and kind and beautiful and it's sickening that he did something like this to you. Don't blame yourself, and please try to keep yourself from feeling any kind of pity towards him. He doesn't deserve ANY pity from you, he's a fucking monster.
 
Liquid Swords said:
My life literally was turned upside down on Wednesday night.

My drink was spiked when I was in a club and I was beaten and raped twice by someone I knew and trusted. The only reason I got away is because the neighbour heard my screams and I managed to sneak out when he fell asleep in the other room. The police found me on the street when I was running away. Ever since I've been in and out of police stations and hospitals. The guy is remanded for now but I'm not sure if he'll be released before trial. The evidence is really strong and the case looks good but I'm still very nervous. This has just put everything in perspective for me, things that seemed such a big deal before seem so pointless now. Luckily most of my injuries are superficial but I've had to get stitches on my foot because I 'degloved' my big toe as I was running away. My head is just crazy right now - partly I feel disgusting and dirty, partly feeling like somehow this is my fault, partly feeling sorry for the guy being locked up (WTF?!) and partly want to beat him with a baseball bat. I want to talk to him, I want him to tell me why he did this to me but I know there's no point in that. I've just totally lost my trust in people which is sad because before I was the most trusting (although verging on naive) person ever. Life goes on though, I'm just lucky I'm here. I'm just scared for the trial, I know rape trials are tricky but the police said they've not seen a case with as much evidence before and there are two witnesses which is very rare plus medical exams and the blood all over his apartment is kinda proof. I'll let everyone know how things go.
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I am very sorry LS. That is horrible and he needs to be prosecuted. Lean on your friends for support also seek out rape counseling. A professional may be needed to let you know this is not your fault. :smt056
 
Liquid Swords said:
My life literally was turned upside down on Wednesday night.

WTF?? Im so sorry to hear this LS. I hope you will press this so that guy can be prosecuted. I hope he gets the max sentence!! You did nothing wrong so please don't blame yourself. I hope you have lots of support from family and others close to you.
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Liquid Swords said:
You're right but I really don't have anyone to talk to at all. I just feel like I need to write it down and tell someone, anyone? I've tried telling people but the words just don't come out, I feel humilliated as ridiculous as it sounds. In my head I don't even know what's going on... everything is just a stupid blur and when I can stop crying I just feel numb. I just wish I could feel the way I did before.
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I'm so sorry this happened LS, it's awful I hope he get's every punishment available.:(
 
Almost surreal LS.

When this is all over you'll have plenty of time to reflect and I hope you come to the conclusion that you can trust people again. Hope youre gettin plenty of support around you.
 
Liquid Swords said:
You're right but I really don't have anyone to talk to at all. I just feel like I need to write it down and tell someone, anyone? I've tried telling people but the words just don't come out, I feel humilliated as ridiculous as it sounds. In my head I don't even know what's going on... everything is just a stupid blur and when I can stop crying I just feel numb. I just wish I could feel the way I did before.
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Doesn't sound ridiculous and is perfectly normal under the circumstances. Unfortunately you may never feel the way you did before, but let's work on feeling better. You did not deserve this LS, did not ask for it, and he deserves to be punished. I know being strong is challenging but your strength inspires others to be strong. Your trial may put this guy away which may save another woman in the future.

You have my deepest lovingest hugs LS. You're not alone and if you'd ever like to just write and chat, you can reach me on facebook anytime.

{{{{HUG}}}}
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Liquid Swords said:
My life literally was turned upside down on Wednesday night.

My drink was spiked when I was in a club and I was beaten and raped twice by someone I knew and trusted. The only reason I got away is because the neighbour heard my screams and I managed to sneak out when he fell asleep in the other room. The police found me on the street when I was running away. Ever since I've been in and out of police stations and hospitals. The guy is remanded for now but I'm not sure if he'll be released before trial. The evidence is really strong and the case looks good but I'm still very nervous. This has just put everything in perspective for me, things that seemed such a big deal before seem so pointless now. Luckily most of my injuries are superficial but I've had to get stitches on my foot because I 'degloved' my big toe as I was running away. My head is just crazy right now - partly I feel disgusting and dirty, partly feeling like somehow this is my fault, partly feeling sorry for the guy being locked up (WTF?!) and partly want to beat him with a baseball bat. I want to talk to him, I want him to tell me why he did this to me but I know there's no point in that. I've just totally lost my trust in people which is sad because before I was the most trusting (although verging on naive) person ever. Life goes on though, I'm just lucky I'm here. I'm just scared for the trial, I know rape trials are tricky but the police said they've not seen a case with as much evidence before and there are two witnesses which is very rare plus medical exams and the blood all over his apartment is kinda proof. I'll let everyone know how things go.
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LS, I'm really sorry to hear this....

Everyone said what needed to be said, but please, whatever you do, take care of your emotional/mental well being now! This incident will come back to haunt you when you're older. It will manifest in ways you're unaware of.

I wish you the very best -


More grim news:

My aunt is in a hospice and looks like shes living her last days. She was my uncles first wife and mother of 2 of my cousins. I could only imagine what my cousin is going through, cause she's been with her mother forever. I told my mother, please take care of yourself cause I can't even fathom going through this even though it's imminent. :(
 
Inner Beauty said:
LS, I'm really sorry to hear this....

Everyone said what needed to be said, but please, whatever you do, take care of your emotional/mental well being now! This incident will come back to haunt you when you're older. It will manifest in ways you're unaware of.

I wish you the very best -


More grim news:

My aunt is in a hospice and looks like shes living her last days. She was my uncles first wife and mother of 2 of my cousins. I could only imagine what my cousin is going through, cause she's been with her mother forever. I told my mother, please take care of yourself cause I can't even fathom going through this even though it's imminent. :(
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I'm really sorry to hear about your Aunt, babe :( That's just so tough. I feel the same way about my Mum, I cannot stand the thought of it happening.... If she dies I think I will die.
 
Inner Beauty said:
LS, I'm really sorry to hear this....

Everyone said what needed to be said, but please, whatever you do, take care of your emotional/mental well being now! This incident will come back to haunt you when you're older. It will manifest in ways you're unaware of.

I wish you the very best -


More grim news:

My aunt is in a hospice and looks like shes living her last days. She was my uncles first wife and mother of 2 of my cousins. I could only imagine what my cousin is going through, cause she's been with her mother forever. I told my mother, please take care of yourself cause I can't even fathom going through this even though it's imminent. :(
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I'm sorry to hear about your aunt, IB. I know how you feel...I don't know what I'd do if something happened to my mom (even as crazy as she drives me sometimes). It's scary because she doesn't take very good care of herself. I'll keep your family in my thoughts & prayers.
 
Inner Beauty said:
LS, I'm really sorry to hear this....

Everyone said what needed to be said, but please, whatever you do, take care of your emotional/mental well being now! This incident will come back to haunt you when you're older. It will manifest in ways you're unaware of.

I wish you the very best -


More grim news:

My aunt is in a hospice and looks like shes living her last days. She was my uncles first wife and mother of 2 of my cousins. I could only imagine what my cousin is going through, cause she's been with her mother forever. I told my mother, please take care of yourself cause I can't even fathom going through this even though it's imminent. :(
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So sorry to hear that IB. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family!
 
hmmm...nearly through our first week of summer school holidays, and the kids are already trying to kill each other. just another 5 weeks to go...should be a walk in the park...NOT
 
LS!! I completely missed this!!!
I don't have anything to add from what already have been said - my heart just sank....that is abysmal and I want you to know that I will send cyber hugs, love, thoughts and prayers your way! You are a beautiful woman, inside out and you deserve the best - nothing less. Please, try to build up a support system around you and don't allow yourself to not trust people again. Counseling is a must - and anyone that is not supportive of you, cut them out.

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IB, I am so sorry to hear that.... love and thoughts and prayers to you and your family too!!!
 
Liquid Swords said:
My life literally was turned upside down on Wednesday night.
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Liquid Swords said:
You're right but I really don't have anyone to talk to at all. I just feel like I need to write it down and tell someone, anyone? I've tried telling people but the words just don't come out, I feel humilliated as ridiculous as it sounds. In my head I don't even know what's going on... everything is just a stupid blur and when I can stop crying I just feel numb. I just wish I could feel the way I did before.
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Little Sarah, as I told you, if u need to talk about anything I'll be there, as all of us here.
If you feel it's so hard to talk about it and you feel like your family and friends aren't good to talk too right now because words get stucked, I seriously think you should try to get professional help. Things like this are hard to accept and maybe a professional that you don't know as family/friend can help you with that. Let things go through you and let them go. It's the only thing I can say.

A big, big, big HUG.
 
IB baby, I will say some prayers for your family through this challenging time.....

LS sweetheart, I am saddened to hear that this has happened to you, no one deserves that, never ever. You are not at fault here and he should be punished for his actions. Perhaps in court you may get to have that word with him that you mentioned you wanted too... Unfortunately you may not get answers and ever understand why he did what he did to you. But you have to know, as you grow and move forward from this horror is that you are a wonderful and fabulous lady who deserves to be treated with respect. May no guy ever lay their hands on you like that again. I will also say a prayer for you LS, stay strong and good luck on your journey through this.
 
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